Doubt and Trust

Ne, actually, it’s kinda embarrassing to tell,

but, to be honest.. I have something bothering

my mind right now. Not really right now,

right now while I’m typing, but “right now” just  a little bit before that. 

Huhu.. nevermind.. I dunno what I’m talking about either.

Anyway, I have a friend. D-UH, everybody

 MUST have a friend; no matter he’s a jerk, a prick, a dork,

 a geek, a gangster, a ninja,  a-whatever-you-wanna-put-it-as: he must have friends.

And it seems to me that this friend really

 has some kinda complicated mind.

 Quite complicated that I am sure

 I couldn’t read her mind. Not that I’m saying

 I’m psychic, (well, I think I do, hehe) but, usually,

what people feel is shown on their face. When she’s happy,

she’ll be like—happy? And when she’s sad

 she’ll be gloomy.. But that’s for normal people.

 And hers, I have no idea.  Really no idea of what she’s having

 inside her mind, and I think she dragged me

 into this, “confuse-ment”

 (sorry for ruining English. Confuse-ment is not on the dictionary and you can’t find it anywhere because the word itself does not exist.)

Abnormal. No sweat.

I think I’ll just have to settle this a little bit of later,

 because of the problems I’ve had with my computer.

 Well, not really MY computer only,

 coz it’s affecting others as well.

Wonder what? It’s not detecting Wi-Fi!

Arghhh!

I feel like going to Jack Sparrow sand said,

 “Jack, let’s go sailing,” and have him said,

“No, dear. I have to fix the Wi-Fi for you, my dearest wobbly-babbly doo.”

(Laugh) It’s funny though, imagining

 Jack Sparrow saying that. And yes,

 I’m really on to Jack right now after I’ve finished

watching all the 3 series of Pirates of the Carribean.

 I mean right now, right now.

 OMG, Jack is soo cute!

 And I hate abang Will and Kak Elizabeth.

They sort of.. bullying my Jack! (whimper)

Anyway I don’t think that the problems

are related to my computer un-detecting Wi-Fi.

 And, back to my story.. this friend, have a doubt

on choosing which one that she loves.

 A doubt? Yeah. And me writing this blog is not going to help her.

What? I’m having conflict between my inner self as well..

Well.. If I quote what had my friend Ziq said before,

“Kalo dah nak tu, cakap je la.. Dah tak nak, jangan pulak bagi harapan..”

Well, I have it translated. (laugh)

“If you want him, say so. If not, say so as well.” Kan? Kan?

If you think about it clearly,

 it’s kind of true, you see..

 You can’t just.. treat him differently from your ‘other’

 friends when you are confused..

 It’s best to just treat him similar to ‘other’ friends,

 and by that way, no one will hurt.

Got it?

No?

Hurm.. Let me give a situation.

There’s 3 people.

 A is a girl, B is a boy, and C is another boy.

 A is friend with B, and she thinks she likes him.

 But then, so many things happen between them that she was confused.

Then C comes along and MAYBE

 that she finds C as the replacement for B.

 And she started to treat C like how she treated B before because she was confused.

 And then?

C probably thought that she might really REALLY

 like him that he was happy, and then..

 can you guess where this take us??

Yup.

It ended up hurting C in the end when

 he finds out that this relationship is not serious at all.

Maybe. I don’t know.

Hurm..

I’m not qualified to give advice

 because I’m not.. well.. educated about this kind of things..

But I do have feelings too, and if somebody does this to me,

then I’ll be fuming as well.

Frustrated.

Angry.

Name all the ‘angry’ words.

Well.. I hope that she’s going to make a good decision.

The one that benefits all and not hurting anybody.

Not the decision that only benefits one person and hurts the other two.

Good Luck!